Audassity

I am very very tired….I’m tired of feeling this way every single day - all day and all night . I’m tired of telling people I’m okay, when I’m actually lying to them and myself. I’m tired of the great things that come my way then they just fade away and disappear. I’m tired of waiting of wanting something so bad that you can’t get it in your grasp and its lost forever. I’m tired of my tears making my mascara run down my face. Im tired of the sleepless night and loss of appetite. I’m tired of watching people dwell in happiness and bliss , moving on from the wrong they put on me - forgetting the hurt that I’ve had to deal with , and still deal with. I’m tired of feeling numb. I’m tired of waiting and my wasting time, my energy, my feelings , my love and dedication. I’m tired of loving the one I wanted the most, but I’m not loved in return. It may sound silly and dramatic but I cannot escape these sorrowed and exhausted feelings I have inside. Love can be deadly and can be heavenly. I experienced both - but I feel like hell now. I’m just tired of Love altogether..but a tiny light of hope and rejuvenation still shines within me.